走着瞧 Let's Go And See

7月14號去見腫瘤科醫生，她表示她其實是非常擔心我在化療後兩個月才接受手術，(我想可能因為腫瘤一般會在停止化療後會生長，)但我手術後的報告顯示腫瘤繼續縮小，故此她很開心。

我告訴她說，我明白她的憂慮，但我很放心，因為這個日期是神替我揀的，不是我自己推遲的。她說你有的禱告很有用，要繼續有。現在回想，神把我的手術時間推遲了一個多月，可能就是要讓她曉得我所信的神是一位奇妙聽禱告的神。

腫瘤醫生要我去見電療醫生，也很坦白地對我說，我的情況，大多數會在兩年內復發。（大約百分之80的乳腺癌患者，可以在治療後繼續接受荷爾蒙療法，服藥五年來防止癌症的復發，但我屬於那20%沒有荷爾蒙療法受體者，故此就很可能兩年內復發。）

聽到這個消息，我心中反覆思量，如果兩年要復發，那麼我是否需要再去接受電療呢。因為目前我已經有輕微的淋巴水腫，再去接受淋巴部位的電療。就會惡化淋巴水腫的情況。

7月18號，PI前會長歐師母寄來問候卡，問我見腫瘤醫生的情況如何。我用電郵回覆她，跟着她有電郵來說，我的癌症會在兩年內復發，她覺得很失望。當我回她的電郵時，突然之間聖靈提醒我一件事。

17歲那年，心臟因細菌感染而發炎，醫生說我可能活不過30歲。這件事我整個教會都知道。事實上，我今年已經68。所以有一次賴木森牧師從星加坡打電話來：「Esther ,褚永華牧師要我轉告你，醫生說你只有30歲命，但你現在已經賺咗一倍啦。」

這是祂對我心的提醒和安慰，大大感謝讚美主！

神啊，腫瘤醫生說我的癌腫會在兩年內回來，我可要和彌走着瞧！

See the oncologist on July 14, who expressed that she was very happy with the  pathology report that the mask continue to  shrink, because  she was worried (that the tumor would grow) since the surgery was scheduled more than 2 months after the chemo .

I told her that I understood her concerns, but I felt peace, because the surgery date changed from June 12 to July 16 was scheduled by God, not me. She said that the prayers I have are good and ask me to continue have the prayers. Looking back now, God delayed my surgery  probably to let her know the God I believe is a wonderful mighty God that  hears prayer.

Then she encouraged me to  continue with the radiation treatment and frankly told me with my situation, that the cancer will return in two years time. (Approximately, after treatment, 80% of breast cancer patients can continue with 5 years' hormone therapy to prevent the recurrence , but I belong to the 20%, for I don't have the receptor, I am a triple negative ).

Since last Friday, I have been pondering upon whether I should receive the radiation treatment .  Because was diagnosed with mild  lymphedema, the radiation on the surgery area surely will worsen lymphedema.

July 18, I received a get well card from Mrs. Ruth Finley, who asked about my meeting with oncologist, upon knowing that the cancer probably will return in 2 years, she emailed back that even she felt disappointed but will continue to remember me.  While reading her email, I suddenly be reminded that when I had the rheumatic heart infection at age 17, somehow, the doctor told me/my mom that I could only live until 30.  And that's known to the whole Redcliff church, the fact is now I am 68 ::))  more than double.

My heart rejoice in Him upon remember this.  PTL for comforting me with His faithfulness and I trust He will do it again.

Lord, the oncologist said that the cancer will return in two years time, Let's go and see !!!

Lord, the oncologist said that the cancer will return in two years time, Let's go and see !!!