5/31禮拜二晚上和弟兄姊妹一同吃晚飯，期間大家分享信主的過程，我提到范牧師在年輕時因打單杠在夏令會跌下來昏迷了一整夜，但沒有送醫院，醒來後知道是神拯救了他，開始跟隨主。我也提到我曾經先後有兩次頭部受傷昏迷，第一次還口吐白沫，但沒有送醫院，只被團友送回教會，由早上十點到下午三時，躺在那裏自動醒來。
這些都是生死攸關的經歷，昨晚6/1入睡的時候，腦海又記起小時候曾經被人緊急送往診所，診所的人還說我染上了白喉。還有一次注射完了每月一次的長效盤尼西林後，因反應送急症。
一時之間萬般感觸，為什麼我從小就有這麼的這麼多的生命危險，健康折磨 ，開始睡不着覺了。
因為睡不着覺，做起來看<基督徒生命中的四大經歷>，當中有一段說到:
"而我始終感到有雙無形的眼睛在看顧我，保護我不受傷害。我是蒙愛和被疼的，我從出胎，神就已經認識我，看見我，為什麼允許那麼多的生命驚險鏡頭臨到我，我不知道。我只知道一件事：他愛我和關照、保護我不致受傷害。(每次都是有驚無險！！)我過去、現在、將來都永遠是他所寵愛的。"
神的話語立時臨到，再次經歷到一個父親用眼目慈愛關注我，在被欺負忽略的艱難時期，神的眼目從來沒有離開過。
過去兩個月其實有許多大大小小的事想和大家分享，可能太多了，始終拿不定要寫些什麼。今天就記下昨天神對我的愛。
5/31
Tuesday evening dinner with church
brothers and sisters, some of us shared how we became a Christian. I mentioned Simon
came to seek the Lord due to an accident fell from a horizontal bar in a
church youth retreat， and became unconscious all night (without being sent to
hospital), woke up and knew God saved him，then began to follow the Lord.
I also
mentioned that I had two serious head injury, both unconscious, the first one in result of mouth foaming, again did not send the hospital, only to be
returned to the church, laid there from morning 10 am to 3:00 pm, then went home by myself. These are serious
life and death accidents.
Last night, 6/1, I recalled one more thing, which made me became
emotional : as a child may
be 10 years old, some one rushed me to the clinic which suspected I was infected with diphtheria. All these causing me have deep fear toward any
sickness.
Being not
able to sleep, I got up to read <Knowing the Heart of the Father, David
Eckman>, and I read the following:
Even though,
I always see the invisible eyes watch over me and protect me from harm. I was
beloved and valued, from the first day I was born, He know me, see me. Even thought I might now know why He allowed so many lives breathtaking
shots came to me, I only know one thing: He loves, cares and, protects, He will
not allow anything to hurt me. (Enemies's atttacks actually missed every time
!!) my past, present and future are always be his favorite.
God is
wonderful, again and immediately, when I need Him, he came to me , comforting me that I am beloved with His smiling
face. I returned to bed with great
comfort.
Lots
things worthy to share from the last two month, I choose the latest one to
share.
