關於我的心律不整 AFib

有些朋友被我的病情弄胡塗了，為甚麼裝了Pacemaker，心跳仍不正常?

健康人心臟的啟動是從竇房結開始的。竇房結發出節律整齊的啟動（60~100次分），啟動依次通過心房、房室結傳至心室，使整個心臟規律協調的收縮與舒張，從而保証心臟的泵血功能，以滿足身體的需要。

我在17歲和25歲那時心臟兩次因細菌性感染發炎導致心臟瓣膜損傷，而引起簡稱房顫的心律失常。

中風是房顫最大的危害之一。房顫時，心房內啟動傳導的方向不一致，頻率快而且不規整，可達到100～160次/分,這使心房喪失了有效的收縮功能，血液容易在心房內淤滯而形成血栓，血栓脫落可隨著血液至全身各處，導致中風。目前，我用抗凝藥物預防血栓形成和中風的發生。 

我安裝的心臟起搏器Pacemaker,是當我心臟因藥物減低過快的心跳，而令心臟頻率不會低過60下；但卻不能調整心跳，故此仍存在房顫的問題。

謝謝大家的關心。

人的同情和神的憐恤 Compassion

前天，6/25，見負責我手術後康復治療過程的醫生。他一見過面，就說：「我知道你最近經歷了許多。You went thru a lot」他這句話，令我很感動，覺得他很有同情心。

跟著他告訴我，手術大約是兩個半小時和會有什麼風險。例如，用的麻醉劑是較強的，會令血壓降低。由於我現在服的藥物令到我的血壓已經很低，手術時血壓如果太低就要停止。另外，為了防止因心律不正而引發中風所服用的抗凝血劑，要在手術前五天停止服用，在停服期間所用的另一種針劑有可能會增加出血不止的危險，和手術期間因現存有心律不正也存在中風的危險。還有，手術後，會引比我目前較為嚴重的心律不正問題等等。 

聽完醫生講述的潛在危險，我心裏很清楚，這次的兩個半小時手術其實比起三年前那十個小時的心臟大手術有更多潛伏的危險。因為三年前的心臟手術我沒有心律不整、血壓過低和中風這些潛在危險。

雖然如此，我心中有極大的平安，因為知道神必定與我同在，因為祂在早上我讀試篇115篇時已經再三地告訴我，祂是我的盾牌

9   以色列啊，你要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你的幫助和你的盾牌。
10 亞倫家啊，你們要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你們的幫助和你們的盾牌。
11 你們敬畏耶和華的，要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你們的幫助和你們的盾牌。 

另外醫生說，負責做手術的醫生是個很好的外科醫生，而他自己也會非常留心我的康復過程。

晚上和范牧師一同做感恩禱告的時候，我對 神說，「父啊我感謝你，因為我覺得這個醫生，由於他了解我經歷過甚麼，因此而同情我的處境，所以就會盡力地幫助我好好地康復。主啊如果人間醫生的了解和同情令我這樣感動。那麼，最明白我經歷過什麼的是就是我天上的父親。愛我的主，你豈不是更加憐恤痛惜我，用你的慈悲和大能來醫治照顧我嗎。」禱告到這時，我留下感恩的眼淚和充滿了平安。 

為了加強和康復順利，現在要加班了:

每天要在外邊三次從街頭行到街尾

每天要至少刷牙三次
每天要勤練吹小球,指標是2000。 目前只到1500，仍需努力

手術是
7月16
日下午一點半鐘。謝謝大家為我禱告。

6/25 Thursday, met with Dr. Arora who will be look after my recovery process after the breast tissue and lymph node removal surgery.  When he came in, he looked at me and said something very touching, "I know you went thru a lot recently’.

Then he began to tell me the surgery will be about 2.5 hours, and the possible risks:-

bleeding due to the Lovelos injection to replace the  blood thinner 5 days prior the surgery.

Stroke due to my present persistant  AFib

Low blood pressure due to the medications I am taking to control my fast heart rate.

AFib problem after surgery.

Dr. Arora told me that my surgeon is a very good surgeon, and he himself will watch closely for my recovery to make sure I have a good and quick recovery.

I realized that this coming 2.5 hours surgery actually has more possible risks then the 10 hours heart surgery 3 years ago.  Yet, my heart is at great peace, for that morning, the Lord already told me thru my Psalm reading, Ps 115 9-11

O Israel,^[a] trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield.

¹⁰ O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield.

¹¹ You who fear the Lord, trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield

During the bedtime prayer with Simon who reminded me that in Ps 115, He is my shield said 3 times.  What a faithful promise !  In prayer, I said, " Father God, thank you for teaching me today, if I was so touched by a medical doctor, because he understood what I had gone thru, compassionated with my situation and wanted to provide and help me with a good recovery process; how much I should be grateful and thrilled to know you, being my father God, who knows me best what I had gone thru and surely will be merciful and compassionate on me, and powerful and merciful  to love and care for me more than any other physician on earth. Thank you Lord".  I cried and prayed  with tears of thanksgiving and great peace. 

In order to make sure I can recovery well, I start busy again for  the following from now on:-

1. Walking to the end of my block and back 3 times a day.
2. Clean my teeth and mouth at least 3 times a day.
3. Use incentive spirometer to strengthen my lung.

My surgery will be

July 16, 1:30pm.  Santa Clara Kaiser.

Thanks for your faithful prayer.

特別感恩的一天 A Day To be Thankful

今天，六月十四，主日，我特別感恩的一天；因為我可以和弟兄姊妹們一同敬拜。宣召時，我已禁不住地充滿了淚水。能回到神的家到，同心朝見父神，永遠是無可替代的恩福。不論是唱詩或聽牧師的講道，我都蒙恩。會後，領詩姊妹的母親特意過來告訴一個好消息:她剛剛決志信主了 ！另一位弟兄分享神幫助他完成一項12年的心願。主恩實在奇妙，因為祂賞賜那些尋求祂的人。謝謝您們的祝福禱告。

Today, June 14 Sunday, is a day of thanks, for I was able to worship together with brothers and sisters.  My eyes already filled with running tears during the call of worship.  It is such an irreplaceable blessing that we can come before Father God as a congregation.  I was so blessed with the singing and pastor's preaching.  After service, the mother of the worship leader came to tell me that she accepted the Lord recently; another brother shared how God helped him to complete a task last for more than 12 years.  His mercy is so rich, for He rewards those who earnestly seek him. Thank you for all  your blessed prayers

上下夾攻 Being Pressed From All Sides

自從5月6號的化療以來，體力已減弱，心跳就一直很不好，每天進出醫院都是坐在輪椅上。由於醫生說我的心臟情況仍然很好，叫我要堅強；加上我希望學習放手的功課，故此就就學習不去煩他或要求裝些什麼儀器來監管心臟情況；不過心跳得很亂，小小的走動人就很不舒服。從13號的最後一次化療開始，每天都只是躺在床上，起初以為是化療的影響，21號那天去了急症室才發現原來心跳已經到180下。

心臟情況變得這樣，我問主：「為什麼我選擇不去控制，學習放手，而結果是這樣呢？」我對神說，我覺得很委屈。

23號那天，吃過午飯，因非常不舒服，再到急症室，這次就要留院。醫生每天都替我調較用藥，總是不行:

24號，慢步不到80步心跳就180。

25號，加新藥，血壓就過低；頭暈嘔心。

26號那天，再調，以為OK，中午出院； 因為鎂點滴要到下午3時才完，故沒有立刻離開，就在2點鐘時，心跳一下落到38 ,又是另外一種的危險。醫生決定裝個心臟起搏器。一方面用藥來壓慢心跳，另方面用起搏器防止心跳低過60。

27號 手術移除PORT 及安裝起起搏器。

我的心啊，你為何如此被上下夾攻！

28號從醫院回家後，心跳的情況仍然是稍有走動就跳得好快。

31號禮拜日晚上和Simon做睡前禱告的時候，告訴神，我有擔心，因為醫生定了6月12日就做手術，我的心臟真的能負擔嗎？你不是說做我的盾牌嗎，不是應承我拯救要速速來到嗎，神啊，你在聽我的禱告嗎？

我知道我又再次陷入小信，趕緊求神赦免。然後想起留院時讀的一本關於禱告的書，但回家後好幾天都找不到。我說：「神啊Simon和我找這本書好幾天了，都找不到，請提醒我們把它放到哪裏去了。」話口未完， Simon 就說找到了！原來那本書一直就放在床邊的椅子上，被一些衣物遮住了。但是我們好幾天就是找不到，一禱告就看到。我心中馬上知道，神對我說，祂一直在聽我的禱告。我們馬上感謝主。

第二天6月1日的早上靈修新約讀經，是希伯來書十一章的「人非有信就不能得神的喜悅，因為到神面前來的人，必須信有神，且信他賞賜那尋求他的人。」再細心回想昨天晚上神如何立刻垂聽禱告的事；心中突然一亮，原來，我一直專注的，是我要在什麼事上放手，和要怎樣放手。是我可以做些什麼，全是自己的努力。神要的不是我的努力，而是我對他完全的信靠。因為自我努力掙扎所產生的是自義和驕傲，這些完全不是神要的。

過去的兩三個禮拜，我在試驗中，一直是自己在努力，當然沒有預期的結果，所以就生出很強的委屈感。想到這裏，我看到自己的愚昧和自以為是。當自己的努力沒有預期的結果時，就覺委屈、埋怨、投訴、懷疑神究竟有沒有聽禱告；淹沒在自己的自憐和挫折感中。這時，我對神說：「父啊，什麼時候我害怕，什麼時候就是要更加信靠你。」一下子，心中輕鬆了許多，覺得主從我心裏拿走了一塊一直重壓在哪裏的大石頭。委屈沒有了。我感恩不已。
                                                                  心中響起了一首歌

我信靠主，不論我在何處，或在陸地，或在大海中途；

每日所遇，全仰望主，慈悲天父必常看顧保護。

我信靠主，深知主看顧我，或在荒山，或在怒海狂波；

主賜洪恩，使我安穩，慈悲天父必常看顧保護。

野地玫瑰，天父尚且看顧，天空飛鷹，祂也指引歸途；

我蒙主愛，恩更豐富，慈悲天父必常看顧保護。

我和Simon分享我的領受，他說：「放手≠相信。」謝謝牧師的教導。

主啊，我願意在你面前傾出我的心。我的靈此刻並沒有卓越的經驗，我的悟性也不靈敏，他們都反應遲緩：然而，我敬拜你，你永遠不延緩或疲憊，你最清楚認識我的構造。(章柏斯-竭誠為主-6月1日禱文。)

Being Pressed From All Sides

Ever since I went in for chemo on 5/6, I’ve been feeling weak. My heartbeat has been irregular, and I needed a wheelchair when I went to the hospital. My doctor told me my heart is still strong. He encouraged me, and he told me to be brave. I also wanted to learn to ‘let go’. All that added to my decision to not wanting to have some device to monitor my heart 24/7. But, my heartbeat is still irregular. I would feel sick even after a short walk. I ended up lying in bed all day after my last chemo on the 13th. At first, I thought it was the effect of the chemo. My visit to the ER on the 21st revealed what actually was happening - my heart was beating at 180 per minute. 

I asked the Lord why was this happening just when I began to learn to let go. I felt kind of defeated.

5/23. I felt sick after lunch. Went to the ER. Ended up staying in the hospital. My doctor adjusted the dosage every day but failed to control my heartbeat.

5/24. My heart rate went up to 180 even with me taking less than 80 steps.

5/25. The doctor put me on a new medication. It gave me hypotension (low blood pressure). I felt dizzy and nausea.

5/26. The doctor adjusted my dosage again. We thought it’s going to be fine. The plan was for me to be discharged after the Magnesium IV infusion was done. At about 2pm, my heart rate slowed down to 38 per minute. At this point, my doctor decided to install a pacemaker. So, on the one hand, he wanted to slow down my heartbeat with medication; on the other hand, he used the pacemaker to prevent my heart rate to go below 60.

5/27. They proceeded to take out the port (for chemotherapy use) and installed the pacemaker. 

Oh my heart, you are being pressed from all sides! 

5/28. Came home from the hospital. I still had rapid heartbeat after even small activities.

5/31. When Simon and I prayed at bedtime, I told God my worries. Will I be able to get better by June 12th, the day the doctor scheduled the surgery? Will my heart be strong enough for the procedures? “Didn’t you say you are my shield? Didn’t you say your rescue comes quickly? My God, are you listening to my prayer?” 

I knew I slipped back to the state of little faith. I quickly ask Lord to forgive me  and increase my faith. Then I remembered that I misplaced a book on prayer that I was reading while I was hospitalized. I kept looking for it for days after coming home. I prayed, “God, Simon and I have been looking for this book for days. Please remind us where we put it last.” Then, Simon announced finding it!  All the time, it had been buried under a pile of clothes on the chair next to our bed. Finding it this way made me realized that God was telling me that He has been listening to our prayer. And we thanked Him.

When I did my daily devotion the next morning (6/1), I came to this verse in Hebrews 11 that says: “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” When I remembered how God listened to prayer last night, I suddenly realized that I had been focusing on what to let go and how to let go. In other words, my attention was on my accomplishment based on my own work. That was not what God wanted from me. My own work could only nurture my self righteousness and arrogance. He only wanted my complete trust in him! In the past three weeks, I had been depending on myself, and of course I didn’t get to where I wanted to be. As a result, I felt greatly defeated. When I realized what happened, I began to see my folly. I complained when I didn’t see results. I questioned God if he listened to my prayers. And I buried myself in my own frustration and self pity. I prayed, “Father, I will trust in you more whenever I am afraid.” Suddenly, I felt like the Lord had lifted a big stone from my heart. I no longer felt defeated but was only grateful. 

I remembered this song:

I trust in God wherever I may be,
Upon the land or on the rolling sea,
For, come what may, from day to day,
My heav'nly Father watches over me.
I trust in God, I know He cares for me,
On mountain bleak or on the stormy sea;
Tho' billows roll, He keeps my soul,
My heavn'ly Father watches over me.

He makes the rose an object of His care,
He guides the eagle thru the pathless air,
And surely He remembers me,
My heav'nly Father watches over me.
I trust in God, I know He cares for me,
On mountain bleak or on the stormy sea;
Tho' billows roll, He keeps my soul,
My heavn'ly Father watches over me.

When I told Simon what I have learned, he reminded me that "letting go is not the same as trusting God. "  thank you, pastor. 

Lord, I pour out my soul to you. My spirit isn’t quick and my mind isn’t sharp. They are slow and weary. Yet, I worship you. You are never slow or weary. You alone know my heart. June 1 prayer from Chinese version of "My Upmost for Your Highest",-Oswald Chambers

The Surgeon

6/9 Tuesday visit with Dr. John Stevenson, my breast cancer removal surgeon. The visit was greatly blessed with the company of Mrs. Dr. Susan Wong (Rev. Wilson Wong's wife, Senior pastor of Berkeley Chinese for Christ Church) to help me better understand more about my surgery on July 16. 

The surgery will be a Mastectomy procedure, to remove all the right breast tissue including the fat and lymph nodes under the right arm pit.  lymph nodes removal will causing swollen in hand and arm since the lymph nodes are glands and that will be the annoying part of recovery.  Again, I look forward for His wonderful mercy around me.

Thanks to Lord for the surgeon, Dr. John Stevenson, as Dr. Susan commented: "I am thankful that God led you to a good doctor, a trustworthy one and also very knowledgeable with a caring spirit.".  Dr. Stevenson came to talk with me one night when I was in hospital, checked with my primary cardiologist, my pacemaker cardiologist, Warfarin pharmacy doctor and oncologist to make sure when will be the best time and right blood thinner dosage for me to have the surgery.  I am so thankful for such a good surgeon. 

Praise and prayer Item:-        

Thank God for Dr. John Stevenson, a very brilliant ,compassionate, listening, detail and experienced surgeon.  He served as the chief of the surgery department from 2002-2007, now also actively involved in the teaching of the Stanford surgical residents and medical students.  I am in such God sent good hands.

Please remember Dr. Stevenson and his whole team , and every patients he treats has wonderful results including Esther Fan.

Praise God for the heart rate is under control with the new medication, the Diltizen,, even though it still tries to race whenever I try to be more active, so I am still learning to bed rest more and relax.  My  eating is getting better.

Weekly Prayer

聽過以下一個故事。

一個宣教士在路上遇上劫匪，土匪正動手要傷害他時，突然面色大變驚惶地說：「快走，有13個天兵圍保護他。」宣教士去到教會講述這件事時，有人舉手問當時是什麼時候。宣教士把時間講出來的時候，那人說，當時正正就是有13個弟兄姊妹在為他禱告。

因為生病，有許多弟兄姊妹和朋友，用禱告來關心和支持我。自從開始治療以來，有多次危險關頭，都是弟兄姊妹去的禱告讓我從化險為夷。其中一個例子就是:

5/21因心跳180，要去急症室，去之前，發了禱告要求給代禱告者。急症室醫生要用一種藥來把我的心跳停掉，再回復心跳；就在醫生要下藥來停止我心臟之前的一刻，神把我的心跳轉變了。

感謝讚美拯救的主，垂聽了弟兄姊妹的禱告，成了神所差來四圍安營搭救我的眾天使。

親愛的弟兄姊妹們，你們是禱告勇士，你們的禱告，也是在我在危險關頭時的神所差派來保護的天兵。謝謝你們。  

Heard the following story:

A missionary on his way to a church and encounter robbery.  When they were about to attack and hurt him, suddenly they were very scary and said "there are 13 heaven soldiers around and protect that man, let's go".

When missionary arrived the church and telling this story.  One raised his hand, and asked what was the time.  Missionary told that person the time, and he said it was exactly during that time, there were 13 brothers and sisters praying for him. 

Because of illness, there are many brothers and sisters and friends, formed a prayer support net to love and support me with prayer. Since then, the dangerous juncture became the experience of His deliverance , One example is:
5/21, due to heart rate was 180, Simon took me to the ER , was diagnosed with SVT - Supra-ventricular Tachycardia.   The ER doctor decided to give me medications to stop the heart completely and then restart it using defibrillator.  This was a risky procedure.  God changed my heart rate and it slowed down right before the medication . 

Praise the salvation of my Lord, He heard prayers of brothers and sisters, you and your prayers became the God sent encamp angels. 

Dear Brothers and sisters, you are faithful prayer warriors, your prayers also the God sent host and angels from heaven.  How wonderful, thank you.

Dear Heavenly Father,

We praise you. You are worthy. "...Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!" (Revelation 5:12) . Thank you Jesus for being slain for us, that we can make the choice to accept Jesus Christ , the Lamb of God who take away the sin of the world, as our personal savior and Lord and become your children and your sheep. We believe that Christ died for our sins, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day according to the Scriptures. We praise Jesus, the living God, and trust that he is manifesting his saving grace and healing power even today.
We read about Jesus' compassion and power to heal all kinds of sickness.
Matthew 8:15-16－"He (Jesus) touched her hand and the fever left her, and she got up and began to wait on him. When the evening came, many who were demon-possessed were brought to him, and he drove out the spirits with a word and healed all the sick."
Matthew 9:18-26－Jesus healed a sick woman and even raised a dead girl
Matthew 12:15－"...Many followed him, and he healed all their sick,"
Matthew 17:14-21－Jesus healed a boy with a Demon
Matthew 19:2－"Large crowd followed him, and he healed them there."
Matthew 20:34－"Jesus had compassion on them ( 2 blind men ) and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him."
We claim Jesus' healing touch on Esther. Our faith is little. But even if we have faith as small as a mustard seed, we can move mountain. With You nothing will be impossible for Esther and for us (Matthew 17:20).
Please answer our prayer, Oh Lord, according to Your Word in Psalm 18:
Verses 1-6：I love you, O LORD, my strength. May Esther love you and claim your strength. The LORD is her rock, her fortress and her deliverer. She takes refuge in you, her shield and the horn of her salvation, her stronghold. When she calls to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, she is saved form her enemies. Though satan is a strong enemy intending to destroy, but you are much stronger. The cords of death entangle Esther; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed her. The cords of the grave coiled around her; the snares of death confronted her. In her distress she called to the LORD; she cried to his God for help. God heard her voice form the temple. Esther’s cry came before God, into God's ears. We also cry to you for your healing for Esther and help for her whole family. We trust that you listen and meet their needs.
Verses 16-19：O LORD, please reach down from on high and take hold of Esther; please draw her out of deep waters. Rescue her from her powerful enemy. The LORD is her support. Please bring Esther out into a spacious place, rescue her because of your delight in her.
In Jesus' powerful name, Amen

移除手術歷險記 Port Removal

5月27日，癌症確診的兩個月那天，要做兩個手術，先把裝在左胸口上的port移除，再裝置一個心臟起搏器。(因為腫瘤在右邊，日後還要做電療， 故起搏器要裝在左邊。)期間出現一些驚險鏡頭。由於我在服食薄血藥，手術是臨時定的，感謝醫生替我打了許多通電話聯絡，把兩個手術擠進去。凝血度當然不夠標準，故此醫生要替我下兩個單位的血清以及輸血。

在完成一個單位的血清點滴後，我出現過敏反應，身上起了紅疹，駐院醫生堅持要完成兩袋的血清點滴，做吩咐護士替我打抗過敏藥，直接從點滴輸入。抗過敏藥一進入血管內，我立刻覺得喉嚨有異樣，舌頭麻痹，頭暈、頭漲、手腳無力。在護士們忙了手腳做這樣檢查那樣檢查下，我被推回病房內。第一個手術延誤了兩個小時。這時，醫生才決定不用再輸入另外一個單位的血清，也不用輸血。我相信神有祂的美意，是他親自阻止了我接受另一包血清。

由於我出現這種情況，所以在移除Port的手術過程中，醫生並無用其他的pre-medication來鎮靜我。整個手術期間，我是完全清醒和緊張的。知道手術醫生出盡九牛二虎之力，在，拔啊，撬啊，拉啊，剪啊地除去那個儀器。雖然沒有痛感，但光是聽到的就令人大受煎熬。

幸好，手術完後，我有一個驚喜。就是護士們用吊臂，把我所躺的那張手術床上、邊上有環的毯子，吊起來，我就像空中飛人那樣，昇高、"呼“ 一下從手術床飛回到病床。好過癮。跟著，護士就把我從醫院的一端趕快送到醫院的另外一端，就是做置入心臟起搏器的手術房做另外一個手術。

這回，醫生讓我入睡了，醒來時，我還不知道自己剛才入睡了，只覺得很快，就繼續唱你真偉大。護士說，我唱了幾首歌:))

在知道要做手術時，教會就啟動了24小時的代禱鏈，每小時都有人用禱告來托著我。我雖然何等不配，神仍如此恩待我。耶和華啊，我拿甚麼報答你的厚恩? 謝謝愛我的主，和每一位關心禱告者。

在右邊凸起那儀器就是port。它有條老鼠尾咭住血管。每次化療時就從這裡入藥。好過在手掌背入藥。每一段時期要護士清洗一次.  (同學文英供應的資料)

The Power Port  is a small medical appliance that is installed beneath the skin. A catheter connects the port to a vein. Under the skin, the port has a septum through which drugs can be injected and blood samples can be drawn many times, usually with less discomfort for the patient than a more typical "needle stick". (from WikipediA)

May 27th. They were going to take out the port for the chemo, then install a pacemaker to prevent my heart rate drop too low. Nothing was easy. Because I’ve been taking anticoagulants, the doctor needed to give me two units of plasma before the procedures. 

What was not expected was that I came down with allergic reactions after receiving the first unit. I got rashes, in order to give me the best benefit, the doctor preferred  finish giving me the plasma. She ordered some IV medications for the allergy, once the medication entered my bloodstream, I felt something was wrong with my throat. My tongue became numb. I felt woozy. My head was stuffy, and my arms and legs became so weak.  After all sorts of examinations by the nurses, I was wheeled back to my room. As a result, the first scheduled procedure was postponed by two hours. The doctor finally decided not to give me the second unit of plasma. I believe God has His own will to prevent me from receiving the second unit of plasma.

When they finally began to remove the chemo port, they didn’t treat me with any pre-medication. I was conscious for the entire process and was therefore quite anxious to listen to how the doctor digging the device out. Although there was no physical pain, the part on listening to how it’s done was a different form of torture.

There was a “surprise reward” after the operation. I was quite impressed by how they transfer the patient from the operating table to the gurney. They used a mini-crane that picked me up by grabbing on to the blanket under me, then "flied"me directly on a gurney. It was fun. Then, the nurse took me down the hall for the second procedure - installing the pacemaker.

This time, the cardiologist doctor put me to sleep.  I did not realized it, and thought the operation was done much faster than what they told me.  So I continue to sing the song I have been singing, 'How Great Thou Art'.  Nurse told me, I had sang several since woke up.

There was round the clock prayer chain activated for the two procedure.  I am so unworthy, yet He loves me so much.  What can I give to return Him ? Thank you my Lord, and all the prayer supporters.

信實的應許者 The Faithful Promise Keeper

化療醫生原本計劃我在5/25，化療六個禮拜之後，做一次Ultrasound檢查，看看療效。不知為什麼，檢查提早了一個禮拜，在5月18號那天就做了。結果顯示腫瘤由二點四cm縮小至零點九cm，淋巴結上的也看不到。

當我問，我可以不可以停止化療，她笑說，我猜到你會這樣問我的。如果你選擇這樣，應該是可以的，不過，讓我去問一問腫瘤科主任，看看他的意見如何。

感謝神，他的拯救真是速速來到，我連第六次的化療也不用做就結束化療的過程：由原定的18個禮拜18次化療減至五個禮拜五次化療就停掉，一切都是神的憐憫和恩典。因為，那應許我們的，是信實的。

5月19號至日做了一次心臟的Echo檢查，檢查的前前後後時間，心臟其實跳得很亂很快。但在做檢查的那一個小時內，卻跳得非常平穩。檢查結果，醫生說我的心臟功能仍然很好。感謝神，祂是我的盾牌。那應許我們的，是信實的。

May 25th. Six weeks after I was on chemo, the doctor wanted to do an ultrasound to monitor my progress. Somehow, it was scheduled a week early. I ended up going in on 5/18. The result showed that the tumor had shrunk from 2.4cm to 0.9cm. You couldn’t even see it in the lymph nodes! 

When I asked my doctor if we could stop the chemo, she chuckled. “I knew you will ask.” She concurred with the idea but wished to get a second opinion from the director of the oncology department. 

Praise God! His rescue comes quickly. I was able to stop the chemo after the fifth administration of medications. God has shorten the process from 18 visits to 5. It’s all because of His mercy and grace. The One who gives us promise is faithful. 

I had to go in for an echocardiogram on 5/19. It wasn’t all smooth. I suffered from cardiac arrhythmia during that time. My heartbeat was rapid. But, it was under control when the doctor examined me. He told me my heart is still good. Praise God! He is my shield  The one who givs us promises is faithful.