人的同情和神的憐恤 Compassion

前天，6/25，見負責我手術後康復治療過程的醫生。他一見過面，就說：「我知道你最近經歷了許多。You went thru a lot」他這句話，令我很感動，覺得他很有同情心。

跟著他告訴我，手術大約是兩個半小時和會有什麼風險。例如，用的麻醉劑是較強的，會令血壓降低。由於我現在服的藥物令到我的血壓已經很低，手術時血壓如果太低就要停止。另外，為了防止因心律不正而引發中風所服用的抗凝血劑，要在手術前五天停止服用，在停服期間所用的另一種針劑有可能會增加出血不止的危險，和手術期間因現存有心律不正也存在中風的危險。還有，手術後，會引比我目前較為嚴重的心律不正問題等等。 

聽完醫生講述的潛在危險，我心裏很清楚，這次的兩個半小時手術其實比起三年前那十個小時的心臟大手術有更多潛伏的危險。因為三年前的心臟手術我沒有心律不整、血壓過低和中風這些潛在危險。

雖然如此，我心中有極大的平安，因為知道神必定與我同在，因為祂在早上我讀試篇115篇時已經再三地告訴我，祂是我的盾牌

9   以色列啊，你要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你的幫助和你的盾牌。
10 亞倫家啊，你們要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你們的幫助和你們的盾牌。
11 你們敬畏耶和華的，要倚靠耶和華！ 他是你們的幫助和你們的盾牌。 

另外醫生說，負責做手術的醫生是個很好的外科醫生，而他自己也會非常留心我的康復過程。

晚上和范牧師一同做感恩禱告的時候，我對 神說，「父啊我感謝你，因為我覺得這個醫生，由於他了解我經歷過甚麼，因此而同情我的處境，所以就會盡力地幫助我好好地康復。主啊如果人間醫生的了解和同情令我這樣感動。那麼，最明白我經歷過什麼的是就是我天上的父親。愛我的主，你豈不是更加憐恤痛惜我，用你的慈悲和大能來醫治照顧我嗎。」禱告到這時，我留下感恩的眼淚和充滿了平安。 

為了加強和康復順利，現在要加班了:

每天要在外邊三次從街頭行到街尾

每天要至少刷牙三次
每天要勤練吹小球,指標是2000。 目前只到1500，仍需努力

手術是
7月16
日下午一點半鐘。謝謝大家為我禱告。

6/25 Thursday, met with Dr. Arora who will be look after my recovery process after the breast tissue and lymph node removal surgery.  When he came in, he looked at me and said something very touching, "I know you went thru a lot recently’.

Then he began to tell me the surgery will be about 2.5 hours, and the possible risks:-

bleeding due to the Lovelos injection to replace the  blood thinner 5 days prior the surgery.

Stroke due to my present persistant  AFib

Low blood pressure due to the medications I am taking to control my fast heart rate.

AFib problem after surgery.

Dr. Arora told me that my surgeon is a very good surgeon, and he himself will watch closely for my recovery to make sure I have a good and quick recovery.

I realized that this coming 2.5 hours surgery actually has more possible risks then the 10 hours heart surgery 3 years ago.  Yet, my heart is at great peace, for that morning, the Lord already told me thru my Psalm reading, Ps 115 9-11

O Israel,^[a] trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield.

¹⁰ O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield.

¹¹ You who fear the Lord, trust in the Lord!

    He is their help and their shield

During the bedtime prayer with Simon who reminded me that in Ps 115, He is my shield said 3 times.  What a faithful promise !  In prayer, I said, " Father God, thank you for teaching me today, if I was so touched by a medical doctor, because he understood what I had gone thru, compassionated with my situation and wanted to provide and help me with a good recovery process; how much I should be grateful and thrilled to know you, being my father God, who knows me best what I had gone thru and surely will be merciful and compassionate on me, and powerful and merciful  to love and care for me more than any other physician on earth. Thank you Lord".  I cried and prayed  with tears of thanksgiving and great peace. 

In order to make sure I can recovery well, I start busy again for  the following from now on:-

1. Walking to the end of my block and back 3 times a day.
2. Clean my teeth and mouth at least 3 times a day.
3. Use incentive spirometer to strengthen my lung.

My surgery will be

July 16, 1:30pm.  Santa Clara Kaiser.

Thanks for your faithful prayer.